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On the Inside

by Colleen Badenhop

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    Colleen Badenhop's debut album features eleven songs with intricate lyrics and passionate vocals with a piano-driven rock-pop sound. The product of a successful Kickstarter campaign, On the Inside was recorded and mixed at Babblefish Studios.

    The CD includes a booklet with the lyrics for all the songs and features photography by Jennifer Taylor Clarke.

    Includes unlimited streaming of On the Inside via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
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1.
A Comfortable Veil I woke up again today on your side of the bed I still think of it that way; can't get it through my head How did I not see this coming / I guess I didn't want to see But if I follow your tracks, I see they're running / You've always been running away from me And I wouldn't say my love was blind But denial makes a comfortable veil Now that my eyes have opened wide It hurts like hell I've been loving you since both of us were kids Thought my dreams would all come true; for a little while, they did They all say nothing lasts forever / I guess I didn't want to believe And even when we'd fight, you know I never really thought you'd leave And I wouldn't say my love was blind...etc.
2.
On the Inside See you driving 'round town in your fancy car / And your Burberry coat like a movie star You've got your hair swept back in just the right place / A million-dollar smile on your face Got your diamond rings and your pretty things / So much bling that you're sparkling And everyone knows you're gorgeous / And everyone knows you're beautiful But nobody gets too close / I think we're all afraid we'll spill some mediocrity on your coat / Hey Whatcha wearin' on the inside / On the inside / Whatcha tryin' to hide? I see you puttin' on a new face / For every new place / Won't you step outside and Open up to me / Let me shine a light / 'Cause I'm dying to see what you look like On the inside Well, you're goin' to parties every night of the week / When you've got the looks, you don't have to speak You just flash your smile for the picture / Let the boys pretend to be with ya But I have to wonder if underneath that perfect hair and your bright white teeth There's a little girl with feelings / A little bit of something real and You're keeping me at a distance / But if you want to let it out, I promise you I'll listen / Hey Whatcha wearin' on the inside...etc. Well, you've got a real life, but nobody knows you They've made up their fairy tales / Now you think you're supposed to Live up to their expectations of what you should be I think there's more to you than what we see / So tell me Whatcha wearin' on the inside...etc.
3.
The Last One to Know When your day breaks cold / When your night falls hard When the tears run down through your scars That's the time you oughta be reaching out to me I could shelter you when the wind blows But somehow I'm always the last one I'm always the last one I'm always the last one to know When your black turns gray / When your rock turns to sand When the olive branch turns to ashes in your hand I wanna be the shoulder you can lay your weary head upon When it seems you've got nowhere to go But somehow I'm always the last one I'm always the last one I'm always the last one to know How am I supposed to be your light When you keep leaving me in the dark? I'm always the last one I'm always the last one I'm always the last one to know
4.
Home Again 04:12
Home Again When I lie down with you, I am home again Enclosed in your arms, I am free again Even though the road was long, I've found my way back to your side And when I lie down with you, I am home again When the world is just so cold, it hurts to breathe Honey, I know where I need to be Oh, what comfort it brings when I see your face It makes me want to sing Hallelujah, hallelujah I am home, I am home When I lie down with you, I am home again With your hand in my hand, I feel whole again And you take me as I've come, and I lay bare my soul to you 'Cause when I lie down with you, I am home again
5.
Stop Right There I love you, but we've made a mistake You love me, but it's just the wrong time I love you, but you're too far away You love me, but I've changed my mind Something in your blood is getting impatient How long can you live inside your desperation Will we survive? Trying every day to drown your frustration 'Cause you can't find a way to change the situation Will we survive? 'Cause you say, “I love you, and you love me, but...” Oh oh oh / Just stop right there / I wish you would You say, “I love you, and you love me, but...” Oh oh oh / Those words are never the start of something good Those words are never the start of something good I love you, but we're just too different You love me, but you're not who I thought you were I love you, but we're falling apart You love me, but I think it's over Something in your blood is getting impatient...etc. 'Cause you say, “I love you, and you love me, but...”...etc. Will we survive? Will we survive? 'Cause you say “I love you, and you love me, but...” Just stop right there / I wish you would
6.
Take Me to the City I am convinced there's more to life than this here fairy tale would have me believe I wanna throw my caution to the wind and explore the possibilities I wanna get away / I'm gonna ride this train I'm gonna go down, go downtown Gonna get a little lost, gonna look around I'm gonna smile at the baby and the long-haired lady Gonna say, hey, it's too late to save me And I'll sing, sing my song I'm not sure if anybody's gonna sing along But I think I'm gonna like what I see Take me to the city My magic eight ball seems to be stuck on “It doesn't look good; try again later” I wanna find the answers for myself, put my doubts upon the shelf, 'cause I'm restless I know things are gonna change / When I board this train I'm gonna go down, go downtown...etc. There may come a day / When I feel miles and miles away Like a face in the crowd with my head in the clouds Might wanna get out of town But that day's not today / I'm gonna ride this train I'm gonna go down, go downtown...etc. Take me to the city, oh, take me down Take me downtown
7.
We've Got a Problem Ain't you ever heard of modesty? Honestly, I wonder if you've looked at yourself lately And do you listen to the words that fly out of your mouth? You know that sometimes they ought not come out Don't pretend to be a friend to me / You could be my enemy, oh And you wouldn't even know it I am, I am, I am afraid we've got a problem here And I am, I am, I am uncomfortably aware That it is just because I've let you that you've taken up my time So now I've got to go, but I think you ought to know I'm leaving you behind So maybe you're a victim of your vanity Can't you see the writing's on the wall You've got nothing left at all The clock is ticking toward the hour when You'll be all alone with your own delusions I wonder what I ever saw in you / Now I see right through To a mirror that is showing me my life And something just ain't right I am, I am, I am afraid we've got a problem here...etc. You and me, we've got a problem here Every day you make it crystal clear And I can't believe I've let you pin me down for all this time But I am stronger now, and I'm finally walkin' out Oh baby, I'm afraid we've got a problem here What will it take to make you see and make you care Because I don't believe I'll let you waste another minute of my time So now I've got to go / By now you ought to know I'm leaving you behind
8.
It's Not Me 04:02
It's Not Me Why are you wasting your time with me You and those beautiful eyes Those eyes that know how to search a soul and find the prize I know there's somebody out there who'd love your smile Who'd jump at your name and walk for miles You're so sweet and kind, with so much to give That someone's bound to see But it's not me I don't know how many times you've looked my way With those beautiful eyes I don't know how many hours you've dreamed I'd say you were mine But you know that's a race that's already been run I can't give you my heart when it's all said and done You're so sweet and kind, with so much to give That someone's bound to see But it's not me And I will miss you if I can't see you / But I know it's wrong to hold on to you I don't mean to push you away / But staying here can only cause you pain Why are you wasting your time with me You and those beautiful eyes You ought to turn them away and face the new sunrise I know she's somewhere out there waiting for you I know you'll find her, and she'll see it too That you're so sweet and kind, with so much to give Yeah, someone's bound to see But it's not me It's not me It's not me
9.
Apart at the Seams There's a kind of safety in knowing how much I disappoint you 'Cause I can't let you down if you're already thinkin' I'm on the ground Looking up at the bottom of your shoe You shut me out again; you said I'm not your friend But I don't get what we're doing here if we're not looking out in the same direction But you don't wanna hear anything I have to say And I don't wanna see that there might be any other way You cover your ears; I cover my eyes And this is the hole we fall into every night Pulling us down You cover your soul; I cover my dreams We're coming apart at the seams And it's a wonder that you're still around What happened to our love? I refuse to believe it was all illusion Shouldn't rewrite history when you only remember the pain Why do we hide ourselves behind these walls? I can't see you at all I keep losing faith again and again 'Cause you don't wanna hear anything I have to say And I don't wanna see that there might be any other way You cover your ears...etc. Sometimes I wonder why you're still around If you'd uncover your ears / And I'd uncover my eyes We'd discover our past / Hiding beneath the dust of our lives The invisible truth / I see in all of my dreams It's not as easy as it seems You cover your ears...etc. Sometimes I wonder why you're still around
10.
Slow Burn 03:56
Slow Burn Up in smoke / Everything that you thought you needed All your beautiful plans disappear right before your eyes Up in smoke / Trying hard not to feel defeated You got your head in your hands and you're wondering which way to fly Everything's gonna be alright / You've been burning for some time And a slow burn is a refuge after all / When it's your turn to be up against the wall And it doesn't really matter what goes up in smoke / When it's a slow burn Had this dream / Hitching on to a star to ride It was a beautiful thing, but it's not gonna happen this time Sometimes dreams take a shape we don't recognize You just gotta close your eyes and find it hiding deep down inside Everything's gonna be okay / That dream's not gonna go away And a slow burn is a refuge after all...etc. Breathe in, breathe out / Give yourself some air Breathe in, breathe out / You're gonna get there Someday you're gonna get there And a slow burn is a refuge after all...etc.
11.
Story 03:24
Story If you were a story, I'd be the pages I'd carry your words from “Once Upon a Time” to “The End” If you were a boat, I'd be your river Carrying you to the places where you've never been If I were the wind, I'd carry you over All of your pain; I'd blow it away If you were a song, I'd sing you softly I'd carry you with me all through my day

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Colleen Badenhop's debut album features eleven songs with intricate lyrics and passionate vocals with a piano-driven rock-pop sound. The product of a successful Kickstarter campaign, On the Inside was recorded and mixed at Babblefish Studios.

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